Noon.
The only power I have is over my recovery. Something happened that reminded me of having withdrawals from alcohol six to seven years ago. It’s an awful cycle to be in. Another thing is my disability, which denies me even more power and freedom. It makes sense that I take inspiration from things like Black existentialism, in which the need for freedom screams to be heard and understood. Only once did I dream that I was flying in my sleep, a dream that symbolizes freedom pure and simple. Being free is not just a delusion you talk yourself into; it’s a state everyone understands intuitively, or else we couldn’t express it in words. As my life proceeds, it feels like more and more bars are added to my prison cell and my worries multiply all the time. People shrug and call it responsibility or being a grownup. But is it normal not to have any fun and happiness with your life? Does the sun bargain for its right to shine? Or horses with wings their right to exist?