Quarter of four.
I’ve heard from Mike regarding my email. I’m still more inclined to leave the band after sleeping on it. He said something about taking the bad with the good, but it’s always been a dangerous situation for me and my sobriety. By the way, I opened the Kerouac book and read the first page: it’s definitely not for me, and it’s a thing that Ron would probably like. And as for ambivalence, sometimes the dichotomies are real and you have to make a decision one way or the other. I’ve been at a crossroads for the past seven months and now I know what to do. It involves dismissing the past, with my old friends and their attitudes… If I’m not doing music for a vocation, then I suppose I still have writing. Yesterday I also read a little bit of Les Miserables, a book I’d like to finish sometime in the future.
robgradens 
It doesn’t have to be either/or, right? You could combine poetry and music in a way that has no commercial value whatsoever but exists for its own sake, informed by the great writers and philosophers you already know. I for one would love to hear something like that.
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Thanks for the comment. I only know that I can’t deal with musicians who overindulge in alcohol and weed anymore. But yes, someday maybe I’ll find people to play with, doing stuff that I wrote. I haven’t thought much about it. For now I just have to get myself out of a slippery situation.
Take care and have a great weekend.
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