Again I am straddling two worlds, secular and religious. But why has the world gone with religion instead of with science? It just seems that way to me. What are the ethics of a scientist, if any? Religion is the science of morals. I’m thoroughly confused and don’t know which way to turn. I only want to know where I’m going to. Is that the place I want to go? I can make an informed decision at last, and it will be mine. What do desires matter? Especially at my age, it all seems insipid and boring… The three schools of Hellenistic thought were Epicurean, Stoic, and Skeptic. Pleasure is either the highest good or it isn’t, and if you don’t know, then you are a Skeptic.
Quarter of four. The sky is mostly clear now. I dug out my Hackett book of Hellenistic philosophy.
Seven twenty. It’s rather obvious that I’m not very happy about something. I’m sick of the blogging community for being fair weather friends. It shows that no one gives a shit. Frankly I’m not a fan of Jesus Christ, and if that makes me an unloved minority, then to hell with you. Maybe someday people will understand why religion is not the answer when our natural resources are depleted and we’ve polluted ourselves out of existence… Public opinion is a fickle thing. I’m just not a joiner. No one thinks anything through logically, especially the big questions that pertain to religion. The soul is not immortal because there is no soul. We are no more than biological organisms… Forget it. I can’t organize my thoughts right now. Something is really eating me. But there’s something about Ayn Rand that rings very true to me, even though she was maligned for her atheism. The same wall she beat her head against is the one I contend with today.
robgradens 
I still read your blog every day, for what it’s worth. I just wanted to give you some space and not comment on every thought.
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It’s okay, man. But it’s not like I have all the answers. I’m just trying to figure out my life for myself. If others want to observe the process, then great.
Hope you had a good Fourth.
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Only the religious have all the answers, or rather, the same answer to every question. The rest of us are honest enough to try to actually figure things out. 🙂
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling. To me, the future looks very, very grim, but the rationale side of my brain is still aware enough not to make any major life decisions for the foreseeable future.
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Do nothing rash when under the spell of the black mood (I say to myself) but harness it for the introspective creativity it may provide. Goya painted the walls of his house with his “black” paintings.
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